Well tomorrow I will be 38 weeks! I can't believe it!! No really, I can't....it seems like it's too soon sometimes! haha Don't get me wrong, I am so excited to see this little munchkin...but I am also starting to get a little nervous about adding a 3rd child (and a boy at that) to our family. :)
I have been getting ready (don't love the work "nesting") for his arrival for the last while now and still feel like I have some things to do before I'm "ready".... is that ever possible? I know Chris must think I've lost it and am totally irrational when it comes to me cleaning out the cupboards and wiping down the doors and light switches, but these are the things I stress about at night. haha I need to stock my cupboards in the next week so my boys have food to eat and there's the endless laundry that I'm always swimming in. :) I have asked myself (and Chris) "what happens if I just go into labor tonight?" and he always replies, "that would be awesome!" but all I can think about it how embarrassing it would be to have his mom see my dirty bathroom or microwave. Silly, I know!!!
Things will be fine, and in all reality, none of this really matters. I think it is just my way of being nervous before another baby. We are so excited to see what Benjamin is like- what he looks like, how big he is, if he's more of a Grant baby or a Michael baby....and how we can't wait to smell that sweet baby smell!! I'm also anxious to have the boys meet him. Grant is SO excited and asks me every day when baby Benjamin is coming. He's thrilled to be able to help with feeding and changing, which I'm grateful for! Michael, on the other hand, is a bit in denial. haha Ready or not! He's sweet and kisses my belly and says hi to the baby, but I think he'll have a hard time sharing me. We shall see!
I have a doctor's appt. tomorrow and should get my scheduled induction date, so I will try to update again soon (unless he comes on his own) and then the next post will be pictures! :)
